Much has been said and done. Bittersweet memories have passed. Over a few months course, life has been totally a wreck and dreck, and although I’d love to go back to those times and alter the wrongs, it can’t be undone. I am forced to continue with imperfections attached.

Now, I’m trying to make up to those times by starting all over again. I’d like to make it seem that all those events, catastrophic or not, did not occur to my life. It’s not that I’m allergic to mistakes, its just that I’m tired of my gradual whining and complaints about my life which led to those unfortunate events. I want to change, and I think this is the right time to do it.

So what I’m trying to do, is I’m going to remodel this blog as a sign of a better change. I know this is just nothing but a complete non-sense blog, but I’d like this blog to serve as an extension of my personality and character.

Second semester starts tomorrow. Mixed emotions, but whatever. It’s already here anyways so, why not make the best hell out of it?

Over the past few weeks, I can honestly tell to myself that I’ve fucked it all up. I can’t barely move at all. It is as if that I’ve lost the drive to move forward and chase the lights I’ve been longing for. I’m completely deformed and I’m done with all these shit. I want to disappear. I want to fade away, move somewhere else where I am unknown and start something new. I feel like crying and shouting but the harder I try the more it’s difficult to do and it’s so fucking frustrating at all levels. My brain’s all nothing but a static. I can’t hear anything. I can’t see anything. I can’t feel anything.  I might not be dead physically but emotionally & psychologically, I am. I’m still hoping that one day, when I woke up, it will all disappear and tranquility shall prevail. Will probably just stare at this empty space until it all wears out. I’m so sick of everything.

Our country’s been experiencing torrential rains over the past few days since last week which makes daily life ten times more stressful than ever. As stressful as it seems, school, on the other hand, is getting much more unbearable. I’m really getting fucking sick of this life. There are times that I want to run away from all these fuck-ups but there’s a part of me that wants to stay and go forth. I am honestly on the verge of crumbling down like an ancient wall but something inside of me says that this is the right thing to do. I’m currently on a state of baffling paradox. Hope this all ends soon.

Setting aside the drama, this is the third day of our class suspension due to distressing weather conditions and I honestly don’t know what to feel about this. Should I be happy because I’m getting an enormous amount of time to rest plus I get to escape school or should I be sad because I’m not getting my allowance plus I get to stay in this totally-wretched & extremely-mundane house. You be the judge.

Oh God, I could really use some help over here. Since you’re not hearing my prayers, you might as well find a time to read my blog. Huge thanks.

Found these necklaces worth 100 pesos each at SM Southmall and I bought these two at 100 pesos as well. How come?

Here’s the story: I was randomly searching from some skin products to use for myself when I stumbled upon these shining, silver necklaces and I thought, “HOLY SHIT I NEED THIS” so I grabbed the two necklaces and suddenly vaulted myself on the nearest cashier and I paid 500 pesos and I absentmindedly put my change in my pockets and I continued my perpetual journey to find the skin product that I need and when I finally found the thing that I was looking for, I went to the cashier and when I grasped some money on my pocket, I noticed that I still have 400 pesos and awestrucked, I check the receipt of my necklaces and I noticed that they only charged one of them lol so I continued to paid for the skin product I bought and I went home and I kept thinking about the mistakes of the cashier personnel and hoped that she won’t get fired for what she’d done. Anyways, about the necklaces…

They look good, aren’t they?

Breaking News: Two weeks ago, Metro Manila was under the influence of a typhoon which made the people inhabiting within this area to metamorphose into couch potatoes. One of the casualties was this 17-year old boy named Nate who claimed that the rain had caused him to do nothing else but to devour in his little world of novels. He almost resorted to kill himself due to extreme slothfulness.

The main reason why I didn’t blogged about this last week was that I was too lazy to move that even breathing quite bothers. I want to talk about school but no, I won’t do that because school’s been rubbish since the typhoon gate-crashed the country. Won’t give details about it because I’m too lazy to construct sentences about it and…

I’M SUCH A LAZY PERSON sigh